Author: gypsywynd

Mother, wife, nomad, lover of history, seeker of truth, and your average person battling depression.

Eleven

Years prior to becoming a mother I was attempting to hold  onto my youth. In this inevitable process of growing out of Barbies dolls, Matchbox cars and discovering music and makeup. Eleven is a lost age really, nothing to set it apart. A moment in the overall assemblage of other life moments. You’re reaching for … Continue reading Eleven

Failed Resolution

The reflection in the bathroom mirror before me was unrecognizable, desperation had finally come. Without any rational thought the now empty aspirin bottle was still in my grasp. My grandparents sat unaware in the adjacent living room. I should have been looking forward to summer, the end of school…something.  No reasoning was available to explain … Continue reading Failed Resolution

Happy Things

So, I am not always depressed. I do always have depression though. However, it is an unfortunate and painful facet of my overall personality, but it isn't who I am. Very few people, especially friends know that I have suffered from depression and even less know about my attempted suicide, stint in the rehabilitation facility, … Continue reading Happy Things

Suicidal Tendencies

Depression can be difficult to recognize when it is slowly establishing itself as the dominant functioning constitution of your psyche.  It is even harder to combat when your own assessment of what might be the genesis of the pain is your belief that it is predominantly evolving out of your own weaknesses.  Just after a … Continue reading Suicidal Tendencies

What Doesn’t Kill You…

My mother is a unique example of someone who gains strength from every hardship and obstacle she faces. Hurdling each impasse with an awareness of her actions and the true fault of those that inflict or attempt to inflict emotional and physical pain on her. She is approximately 5 foot nothing but strikes a much … Continue reading What Doesn’t Kill You…